
So I posted last week that I wanted to get a tattoo. Since I'm insane, I decided I would do it that same week.
It wasn't something impulsive, au contraire mes amis, it was just the conclusion to a couple of years of careful preparation. I was just waiting for the right moment. It was easy to recognize it was the right time.
I had found the idea that I wanted to keep with me forever, the statement that was going to follow the rest of my life, or at least try.
I also found someone I trusted enough to let them carve on my skin.
But most of all, I was no longer hesitant. I no longer cared what my bosses or my friends would say.
Some people don't make a big deal out of people's appearance, some do. There is nothing I can do. After all, what matters is how I feel about myself and how I present myself to others.
I decided to get the tattoo on the inside of my forearm. Quite visible if you ask me. And I would not have it any other way.
I actually wanted to tattoo my hand, but somehow my tattoo artist suggested I don't. After thinking about all the other possibilities (ankle, inside arm, etc...) I chose the forearm. If I wanted a tattoo, I wanted something I could see myself, all the time. Because for me it is not really an ornament, this tattoo is a reminder.
Let this be clear, I'm not a fan of pain, I've very often been described as hypochondriac and a wuz. Lets just say I proved everyone right that Friday. My friends knew I would need moral support so Stephanie, Dominique and Nik showed up.
Before the needle was out of its package, I had already freaked out. When the tools were ready and the gun was buzzing, I withdrew my hand and proceeded to laugh like a mental patient, after five minutes of uncontrollable hysteria I was finally able to sit straight and let the poor guy touch my arm.
It hurt. Not as much as I thought it would, quite bearable, still, those are 20 minutes I'll never forget. Yes, it took only twenty minutes. Quick and efficient.
I think my friends also enjoyed the experience, they love me, but they also enjoy my suffering or my theatrics, I still have a hard time understanding the nuances of their appreciation.
I'm glad I went ahead with this idea, every day I see this reminder and I'm sure it wasn't a mistake, I'm under the impression that as the days go by and I grow older and wiser, I'll love it even more.